if cells are renewed every 7 years
that means I have a body that only you’ve touched.
My skin has only known tenderness, kindness
affection and deep pleasure
with no memory etched on it of the pain it’s known.
That means it doesn’t know what it’s like
to feel the shudder of unwanted fingers
or the bruises of fists and feet.
it’s not felt broken. Or dirty with the weight of unwanted bodies.
This body now knows only happiness and safety
it has no trace of the unpleasant past.
It has only known you, your hands, your mouth
your love.
And it will only know you in that way
The love of the rest of my life.
Unfinished
I try to push you away
Ive told my heart to let you go
But it won’t let me forget you
Because I love you so.
Am I getting too much now?
Do I often make you sad?
If I left your life forever
Would you finally be glad,?
Do I make you feel unhappy?
Do you wish we’d never met?
I will leave you if you want me to
How will I live with such regret?
I think of you in the morning.
I dream of you every night
You make me feel I’m safe
When your arms are around me tight.
The real me
Now you know the real me
I don’t doubt you want it to end.
I’m not pretty enough
My scars are too deep
I’m not fun to be around
My heart only now weeps.
I’m not good enough
I’m too far gone
Just to feel wanted
Is what Id really for long.
My body’s too ugly
My mind too confused
You’re so gentle to me for
I’ve too much been abused.
I know you don’t want me
I don’t blame you at all
I’ve been hurt so many times
I’ve left up a wall.
I’m worthless and ruined
You’re too good for such as me
You can turn away and leave
Alone is all I deserve to be.
When you touch me…..
When you touch me I don’t flinch
Not with you.
I know you only have tender fingers
You don’t leave me black and blue.
Your words are soft to my heart
Like warm days and sunsets and
Everything soft. Not like the jagged glass
I’m used to of cruel insults and harshness
that cut deep and forever last.
You do everything to raise me up like
I’m worth something and sometimes…
sometimes I believe it …
Until the past that lowered me pushes in my
mind like stuck in grit
after a cut. My cuts you try and heal..
the ones deep inside that never really closed
and were all I’d feel…
But sometimes you slowly form scars
Over the wounds and you lift
off the bars
that cover my feelings. I’m not scared with you.
I’m not scared to be naked in body or mind.
I know the only things you do to me
Are coming from your heart that’s kind .
Wishes
Hold me in your arms
And tell me we belong
Be mine for one last time
Before our dream has gone.
Make my heart seem whole
And bring me peace again inside
Let our love be open
Before my feelings have to hide
Tell me I am yours
Even if only for this small while
Think of noone else
And give me one more time to smile.
Touch me hold me love me
Let us join once more together
If only for this moment let me
Feel you’re mine forever.
Losing You
The pain of the thought of losing you
Is so intense
I think the real pain will be too much.
It will be like sitting in a black hole with no way out and getting in there
was not a choice.
There will be no point to anything.
To waking, to breathing, to sleeping
Actually No.
Sleep will be welcome
with dreams of you still being there
Its the waking that I would hate.
When the reality will hit with a force that will take away every breath.
What will be the point in the sun when you have become the light of my life?
Why would the moon be there when theres only me to see it?
What would laughter be without you to make it?
What would be the point in me anymore when
My best piece isnt there?
I will wish I had listened more, hugged longer and made every minute a memory.
The hole will make me fall without an end,
how will I get out
when its always been you thats
shown me the way?
No words
We say so much without a word
Sitting next to each other
The silence is comforting when there’s no need to talk
I’ve never had this with another.
I look at you across the room
And you know what’s deep in my heart
You know all that I’m trying to say
When I can’t find the words to even start.
The feel of your hand makes me safe
Your eyes make me feel all is fine
I feel that life is finally great
Each time that your lips reach for mine
The last 7 months
A time to rely completely on God
As all the world became as one
Money or status really didn’t matter
As everyone saw a new way had begun.
We couldn’t see family or friends
Human contact became a huge no
Possessions meant not a thing anymore
When we realised people were what fed our soul.
Loneliness made life so bleak
For so many people on their own
But suddenly letters and messages were sent
As neighbours made sure others weren’t alone.
Schools were shut and shops closed
Parents juggled so much
We didn’t need the things of before
We just longed for human touch
So will we change our ways now
Or will we go back as before
Will we continue to rely on God
And love our neighbour evermore?
Second Place
I made you the centre of my world
And I’m so annoyed at myself
I put everything else around you
And I was left waiting on the shelf.
I was never quite enough for you
Always in reserve
Because I was so stupid to adore you
I got exactly what I deserve.
I should wait for someone else
Who will treat me like a Queen
But I know no one else to me
Will mean as much as you mean.
Loving you…
Loving you is like
Jumping from a rocket
On its way to an unknown destination.
It’s thrilling, scary and maybe
Not so planned out.
It’s the first time I’ve done it
And the last time I will
This is my final journey of love
I wouldn’t survive if this ends
To take another shuttle.
I wonder if the parachute
Will come open or if
I’ll just fall to the ground.
Thrilling nonetheless on the way.
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