It’s not very often that I go out without all of my children in the evenings but for the last few months for around 3 hours, Lititia and I have been going out! And after the first handful of times the other kiddies were used to it and hardly complained. Of course if there weren’t a few grumbles I would probably call the doctor and feel a little put out that they didn’t mind my absence ☺️
So, what have we been doing with our freedom? Well, we have been going to Confirmation class! Since Jayden started school and I’ve been feeling so lonely, I’ve discovered my journey of Faith. I haven’t any astounding story or moment of when God entered my life but I think with my mind and time not preoccupied and at a time when I needed someone, this was when I was open to start my journey. My family, who aren’t huge believers have been so supportive and have been so encouraging I’ll be forever grateful as its not easy telling people you have accepted God into your life at 39 especially when I’ve been openly against religion and some people have been negative but that’s ok and I respect their opinions.
All my life I have never known what I have wanted to do with it. I love being a Mum but as a person there has been nothing that has really interested or inspired me but now I feel this is my path. I’m not sure in what direction it will go but I feel a sense of peace that I’m on the right road. I have also met many lovely people and made new friendships and discovered things about myself. I am also trying to be a better person in how I act and what I say and wanting to help people and any journey that encourages that must be positive surely!
Sadly, this last Thursday was our last class and I’m really sad about that. I’ve enjoyed learning and especially enjoyed spending time with some wonderful people. So why are we not going anymore?
Tomorrow (actually today!) Lititia and I will be getting Confirmed. Sadly it’s not in our own church but several people from our church are coming to support us which means so much. The people we are going with are so understanding of Lititia finding new places hard that they suggested we go early so she could get used to the church before anyone arrives. What’s wonderful support system we have.
Our vicars have even asked to sit with us so she has familiar faces with her.
I am nervous but very excited to see What this new chapter of my Journey will bring.